"The best teachers don't give you the answers, they just point the way and let you make your own choices. Your own mistakes. That way you get all the glory and you deserve it. " — Will Schuester, Glee

In the end, things are still all up to us. It just saddens me that there are only a few teachers who are like that. But honestly, I couldn't even name one, not even my own brother.

I remember a friend asking me if I'm serious on taking teaching as a profession. I'm not, really. One of my professors said before that he didn't notice that he had been teaching for 10 years because students come and go. Realizing it, he felt that he had been left behind. I don't want that feeling.

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~chaos-mode, you better have your foot checked right away. Hmph.

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As I was looking at some recent photos awhile ago, a memory of a friend of 3 years struck me. She wasn't in the photo though, her girlfriend was, who is a friend as well. She took suicide a couple of months ago. And a week before the incident, she tried to talk to me.
I was busy back then as I was in a classmate's house when she sent me a message. Normally I would ignore messages when I'm busy, but I felt there's a need for a talk so I made myself available. She sent me a sad emoticon, and that was it.

I understand why she did that, but I am still sad and angry about her death until now. Friendship is such a wonderful thing. It makes people feel different things all at the same time. Maybe for that reason that I value every friendship I have -- in real life and online, no matter how shallow or intense it is. It makes me feel alive and struggling.



Okay. Let's stop the cheese and procrastinating now. I finally gained some inspiration and anger to work on my thesis. I just hope it won't ruin the happy mood my illustrations has to have.

Procrastinating sucks.

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What would you do if you found out that someone made a fake Facebook account, pretending to be someone you know?

I usually don't really give a damn on things like this since it is Facebook; there's no privacy even if it says that it has. Like if you're going to post anything online, you should always be prepared and take the consequences of having things known in public--that's why I never post anything I'd regret sooner or later.

I'm annoyed because this person can access my photos, and even if this impostor was not tagged in the photo album, she managed to know right away that I found out about her doing through a caption I wrote under the photo where I tagged my friend. I don't like people I don't know snooping around my stuff. Oh dear, my friend has a stalker!

I saw the impostor online, so I started a conversation pretending that I still believe that it's my friend's account. She admitted to me that she isn't my friend, and she's not a poser. Like how confusing is that? I asked her why was she using my friend's name and then asked me if my friend said anything about it, so I told her that if I knew, I wouldn't ask to begin with. She told me that it's better that I don't know the reason. Gawd, I'm so fucked up that I couldn't even say bad things to her.

I already fixed my Facebook's privacy settings for the nth time. I didn't block or report her. I still want to know what she is up to, or like if this is a prank or something. My friend seems to know what is going on and he is is not taking any actions about this. I'm not sure though.

I hope this is all just a joke.

Our university's countdown to 400 years/Paskuhan was a blast! The 7-minute fireworks were awesome! I had fun with ~Weland, Kate and my classmates. Sandwich, 6Cyclemind, the university's choral, and some local actors and actresses rocked the stage.
Too bad ~chaos-mode had to attend her Christmas Party. Hmph.

~Weland bought me iced Tazo Chai tea. Thanks, man!
It was great. I guess it'll taste even greater if it's warm. I'll have a warm Tazo Chai tea sometime soon. One of my classmates said I was too hyper after I had it.

You're right, Sam, it's my new favorite now! Thank you for introducing it to me. Tazo Chai tea everyday plz.

I also had Red Milk tea from Quickly after. It doesn't taste good. The black pearls weren't really chewy. Ugh.

I'm too tired. I'll just upload my photos later. Yipee.
Okay, fun is over. Thesis doom! Boohoo!

I'm having a blast on a box of chocolate crinkles my brother got from someone. Geez, I'm having too much sugar. This is baaaaaaaaaaad. Sugar-high!
I promised myself that I would reduce my sugar intake a couple of days ago but my brother's students gave him a bunch of sweets, and there's no way he could eat all of them. And there's no way we'll give them away.

It's already mid-December and I haven't tried Tazo Chai tea yet. I'm not sure when I'll be able to drop by Sbux though. I don't even have the time to drop by the malls!!

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I don't like how the photo studio person edited my graduation photo for the school yearbook. I looked 10 years older than my age! I shouldn't have even put some make-up on if I knew they're just going to photo-ugly-shop my picture.
Oh well, at least I still look like the way I want in real life. Geez, I whine too much.

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It's so sad that Asian women experience this in the States. Sometimes I wonder if I happen to move overseas, will I personally be affected with things like this? [link]

In general, what do you think of Asian women?

LOLCATS MAKE ME HAPPY. Like big time happy. [link]
It never failed to make me smile.


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LEARN TO SPEAK LIKE A LOLCAT: [link]
Oh yez, plz try dis. IKR, I'm too shallow.


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I want this Lolcat shirt even if it's an epic fail: see cat #22 & 24. [link]
Too bad it's out of print and they only ship it around the US.

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KTHXBAI.