Been blogging a lot lately. It really sucks when really don't have anyone to share your thoughts with at the moment.

I understand the 40-year gap between my mom and I, but she's just too much. I never asked and expected for any encouragement from her, so to nag and blame me for something I am not in control with annoys me a lot.

I got 3.0 on my 1st semester thesis, something really unexpected. I told her that my adviser will explain the details on Monday and I still got to hear his side before I can go mad, but mom firmly said that she won't accept 3.0 for a grade, like I should never have a grade like that ever.

I did what I could, and I pretty much believe that I don't deserve that grade at all, but I have to stay calm --- even if it took me 2 weeks to fully accept that I can no longer run for the cum laude thing. In arts, the skill you have in executing and accomplishing you work is far more important than grades. Ugh.

Ice cream please.

It's almost 5 in the morning and yet I'm still awake.
I really don't feel like sleeping but I have to since my classes resume today at 12 noon. My new schedule sucks and my body clock isn't ready for it. I dislike night classes. No fun at all.

Gawsh, there'll be no breakfast for me this morning -- eat brunch perhaps before I leave for school. Too bad I have to make my own meals this morning. Ack, I absolutely dislike cooking if I'm the only one to eat what I'll make.

And whether I like it or nawt, coffee will be my best friend for the next 4 months. Energy drinks were never an option. Coke, chocolate, and tea aren't any help.
And I got to remind myself to drink coffee 2 hours before I work because it really sucks that I only drink when I'm at my edge.

Oh dear, I gotta learn how to drink coffee the way adults want it in the morning. And I'm only 19, but I feel so old now. I was way happier with coffee when I was 16 and only had a few deadlines to meet.

LOL like this is ever interesting. Sarcasm much.

- The longest time I talked with someone on the phone is around 14 hours.

- I like black pepper much so whenever it suits well with what I eat at the moment, I put a lot.

- I had 13 cats when I was 10 years old. Mom ditched them down to 2.

- I like Kino no Tabi A LOT. Very timeless.

- I like artsy nude a lot. Very enticing.

- I like children's books a lot but I'm not fond of children.

- James Jean is one of my illustration gods. Give me any of his books and I will love your forever. LOL.

- Coffee = deadlines. Not that I dislike drinking coffee, it's just that there was a time that coffee no longer worked to wake me up.

- I was happier when I was 16 years old.

- I LIKE CATS A LOT.


*bow*

I'm having a hard time deciding on which is a better surface for painting, hardwood or plywood? I'll be using acrylic paint and gel medium. Maybe you guys can help me decide by giving me pros and cons.

Thanks.

It's time to focus on more important things. I shouldn't feel bitter on things and people that don't really matter.